17 Again

Went to watch this movie (17 Again) on last Thursday. The story is about "popular high school senior Mike O'Donnell seemingly has it all. He is a star athlete headed straight for a college scholarship when he decides to give it up to settle down with his high school girlfriend Scarlett. Twenty years later, an adult Mike finds his life is not exactly what he expected. He is separated from his wife, Scarlett and.... ............. bla bla bla... .............. ..... ........ Through his experiences, Mike realizes that he had chosen the perfect life he just never appreciated it". Whoever that had watched this movie, you will have a better idea on what I am talking about.

I felt that there is quite a similarity in myself with Mike O'Donnell in this movie. Both of us had a perfect life, both of us give it up to settle down with our loves one. Later on, althought we never regret on the decision we made but we kept blaming the fact that our life does not turned up the way we expected because we give up so much to settle down with our loves one and think that "what I am going through now, I dont deserve it" and "I gave up all this for you", although we never voice it out directly but it is in our heart all this while. Both of us, throughout the years of marriage, we dont feel good, everything we done just dont seem perfect. In the movie, Mike claims that he done alot for the backyard of their house which he only spents 2hours on it and the next 3days complaining over it. This scenario is exactly like me! Throughout my 3yrs relationship, I done nothing for real, she is the one that doing all the jobs, I only know how to talk and instruct her what to do. I had been living in the past, I always felt that she should feel lucky to be with me but I am so wrong!! Just like in this movie, we had been living and envying our past so we ended up jeoperdize both our marriage and career. But Mike is lucky, he got the chance to transform back to when he is 17 and realized that he had chosen the perfect life but he never appreciated it so he start to make things better and yes he got a second chance!

Throughout my separation with her, I had came to realized alot of things including that it is me that should feel lucky to be someone as special as her, without her I am no where today, I will still be some rich brat kids driving around in town on luxurios car and spending money like water taps, hitting clubs/pubs when the night falls etc. I wont understand the meaning of life or love, I wont had learn to grown up and make decisions. Whatever I gave up to be with her 3yrs ago, I did it for something that I really want, a decision I made on my own like an adult, I want to change, I want something better. I want to change for something even better than what I used to have, together with her, something wealth and money cant buy, something that doesnt exist in my parental family..

If I could turn back the clock or be transform back to 3yrs ago, I will still choose this path again but I will do it better this time around; to be in love with her, to feel her love, to be with her even for just a day and to see her smile, its worth everything.. I had just jeoperdize everything for living in my past, I regretted it, I regretted for not treating her the right way, I regretted for taking her for granted, I regretted that I never know how to appreciate the perfect life that I had chosen..